Awake

Did you know that you have an expiration date?

Now to be all gloom and doom but, you are dying everyday. You are always more step closer to your death every moment that you are awake.

Last night I spent hours crying over that fact. Crying over the fact that I wasted so much of my life doing dumb stuff. I wasted time that I could have spent getting closer to God. I took that precious time and spent it on whatever I wanted to do at the time. I wasted my talent and gifts that God had blessed me with. I cannot tell you how much that bothered me.

What I would give right now to go back and redo the 5 months of my life that I forgot about God and ignored Him. What I would give to have my innocent, lovely self back. The girl who knew that she didn't need a man, the girl who did not let her heart be played with, the girl that believed in true love. I wish I could be the girl without baggage again.

I wonder what would happen if my life was over tonight. Like what if this was the last day that I ever had to live? What could people say about my last day? What would my funeral be like? Would people say, "Well she had great plans," or "She talked about doing amazing things"? I pray that my life has left more of a legacy than that.

I am expiring.

Every breath that I have taken is one less that I have to take. Everyday I wake up older than I was yesterday and the youngest I will ever be again.

I do not want to get to Heaven and God look at me and say, "What did you do with what I gave you?" I do not want to have to hand Him back the gifts that He blessed me with, the ones that I asked Him for. I want to reach Heaven and have nothing left, I want to have served with everything I had. I want to be empty of anything that God gave me. A vessel filled with God, yet poured out for all mankind.

I never want my life to be meaningless.

 

Part of knowing who you are in Christ is realizing that He has called you to higher things. He has called you to live a life that you can look back on and be proud of. He promises to walk every step with you, but He also asks that you lay down your cross daily and follow Him. "...Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,  I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillippians 3:13b-14

It is time that we start living our lives. My darling, it is time for you to stand up and leave a legacy. Let us not be a generation that simply lives for themselves and then dies. I do not want to be a forgotten generation.

I want us to be the generation that knows who they are and knows who their God is. I want this to be the generation that stands up and leaves this world a better place for those who come after us.

I want to be a generation that is awake and alive. I want to be a generation that doesn't take one second for granted. And it starts right here, this second, this day. It starts with you.

Ephesians 5:14 - “Wake up, sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”

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